LaSt MaN STANDinG

Another kollegue left. KNN, another space to fill again. How many more left? How many r going again?I hope those new blood in the dept will have a sense of belonging and stay on to the job for a longer time. Went to E.C wif IceQueen in the nite. Nice toking to someone i regard as a true fren. Hope she will be fine after a while. My shitty life CCB is now sliding deeper in the downward spiral in which i hated. Problems at work and at home smack me like no LJ reasons!!! fuck lar, I know i did some wrong, NN, i swear to G0D c0me sept, i will make things better!!

Today is one of those days that i wished i was dead. SOmetimes i feel like i am already Dead-Inside. Another sleepless nite.... I need the push to make me move...BUt where the fuck is it?!!