Price to Play the Game

"I hear a voice deep within .....It's crowning into a scream."

Dear Fellow Maggot Clowns:You failed to see I'm sick of this chances , well you are oblivious to how I feel, standing on your throne and I'm sure that I'm not alone, muthafuckas.

So..Tell me please, who the fuck do you want me to be? Was there something I couldn't see? Never knew this would be so political and please I'm still wearing this miserable skin and its starting to tear from within, but it's obvious that doesn't bother you..

I didn't think that you'd sell me out now I know what you're all about. You might feel in control of things. But you're not holding all the strings. Swallow all your anger, I've swallowed all my pride ...you used up all your chances to keep this all inside..

I know I've been mistaken, But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made.I've got some imperfections.. But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face???

So... Please don't be telling me its ok ...I don't buy all the shit that you say and quite honestly I'm fucking sick of it ...so please, if I cut off this nose from my face then I wouldn't feel so out of place but it still wouldn't be quite enough for you right?

Hence, these are my words that i've never said before. Ithink i'm doing okay and this is the smile that i've never shown before.

I hope you're not intending, To be so condescending, it's as much as I can take, And you're so independent, you just refuse to bend, So I keep bending 'till I break.I already told you, that falling is easy its getting back up that becomes the problem..

If you just walked away , What could I really say? Would it matter anyway? Would it change how you feel? I'm the mess you choose, The closet you cannot close,The devil in you I suppose... Because the wounds never heal.

I think I am going crazy...

So..What will you pay, to play the game??