My Next Destination

"One step forward
Two steps back
Three steps forward..."

I am so lost.

should i take it up?

You said i fit the bill and am really keen to get me on board.

Its not fanastically better in terms of moola value.

Although more exposure and managerial prospects are promised.

More shit and hours vs. current relax environment.

Fear of the unknown, stress etc vs. a new change to move on in life.

My life might go further down the spiral or it may spiral me up to the skies

A change is always good, resistence to change is not. Change is the only constant in life.

I am so sick of facing the same shit for the past 4 years.

Resilience forces will reduced further if i stay on further, because the mind is too stuck with the old ways.

Should i wait and bleed or wait for better opportunity?

Some said, take it , if don't like it , move on.

I am so sick to be in the shadow and being stereotype as what you think i am.

I am caged within by your constant mental torture, i cannot take it. Your pyscho games are a horror.

You said if you can't move up then move out, maybe i should.

Maybe all this is Godsend, a new direction he path for me. Its the devil that clouds my mind, injection of fear, doubts uncertainty.

This insecurity, low confidence might be the work of the evil one that has grab me by my soul all these 4 years..Fuck you i say.

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME...

GOD IF YOU ARE LISTENING PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO?

SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO?...