Melancholy Mechanical Animal
Watching WC now, France 1, Por 0 at the moment. WTH.So What?!
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These days, i feel so sick of life. I am so sick of going to work everyfuck morning, The thoughts of it having to wake up and drag my feet to the office is so dreadful. I can't just quit or change my shit job for a lower salary slave job because i have many shit commitments on hand, I have to work my arse off until the day i die.
Everyday the routine is the fuck same, rush to get out of the house so as to catch the damn bus to the mrt station. Met the same bunch of assholes neighbors whose face is so black to even to put on a smile, I guess Morning is not so good for them after all, fuck, so i just use my killer stare at them , like a black cat starringout in the cold. Stupid People.
The train like is i said before a billion times, is fucking pack with smelly people. Whatever.
Normally, when i leave the train station, i will walk towards the hotel area to avoid condo construction.Used to be afraid that i get killed by falling bricks, window panels, but well now WTF, i dun fuckcare no more.. I openly walk towards that area, If my time is up, is up, kill by falling hammer? saw? I don't really bother no more.
My Job as legalised Ah Long is oh so suckie. Nevermind those langgar faces colleagues. To me, they are just accident gone wrong in their mummy's womb.When i join the company few years back, i was full of energy and fiery. Anythime ask me to get low down and dirty and quarrel with customers over repayment was cool, fun. Suing customers and see thier sorry asses houses kena size and auction their stuff in legal proceedings was way too HAPPENING FOR ME. But after all these years of doing the same thing, things are getting oh so stale. I just can't imagine idiots who stay on jobs for a LIFETIME, don't they realised that CHANGE IS THE ONLY FUCK CONSTANT IN LIFE? At my age now, being alot more mellow inward, ask me to carry on being the bad ass credit controller, its oh so not right. I find that i am Mr Bad news to customers, spreading fuck negative energy around. This is oh so wrong.
I miss those good old times when i have people in the office that i can relate to. Now, the only person i can relate to is the fuck office toilet mirror that reflect my own langgar face. Bosses are still bosses, so what i am the ace person around them now? People here look at me as a lackey, whatever bad names you can imagine, these people will call me from their fuck filth stained mouth.
I just can't stand it when i see people skiving in office and badfucking mouth me say i am a OTD king...fucking on the dot king...I just can't stand why people would wanna spend their time blogging and TRASH TALKING ON msn in the office and go kopi breaks and is SORE EYES when see others leave on the dot. Well, to me, if you cut down on all that shit, you can definitely not work late, unless your fuck department are run by demons or lousy fuck managers who cant manage their people and make them work late. What high volume, what high transactions, billing inputations? I say fuck you, if your department people are working till like 9 to 10 pm everynite, something is very wrong, it means you need to hire more people. Well, many fuck managers will say no fuck budgets...Get a life man!
Hence, that day when i heard that OTD king shit, i confronted those idiots before i leave, i ask them : "still aroud? well, work hard doesn't pay, you gotta work smart"..those aunties heard already face changed immediately. I think i fucking idiot to do it, but i just gotta let it out my fuck system.
Dissatisfaction is a way of life. Men is never happy with what he has. So do I. I am very much human, a very mechanistic one.
Anyway, enuff of feeling sorry for my lousy self...I have been trying to find the title of this song for many months, heard it oh so many times, just didn't know the title until Today. Thanks to Blue Apple for sending me the MP3. Is this song from some CMi korean drama mama..I don't know. Anyway, chinese songs that touch me are very few, this is one of them. Reminded me of all the good, bad, sad times.
My life is sad ,well, at least certain parts of it. I hate to be this Mechanical Animal that society has make me.
I want to very much break free. God please help me.
Baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心 好好欣赏你的美
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走 去跟随~
每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦 难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次kiss you Goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味- [Kiss Goodbye]
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These days, i feel so sick of life. I am so sick of going to work everyfuck morning, The thoughts of it having to wake up and drag my feet to the office is so dreadful. I can't just quit or change my shit job for a lower salary slave job because i have many shit commitments on hand, I have to work my arse off until the day i die.
Everyday the routine is the fuck same, rush to get out of the house so as to catch the damn bus to the mrt station. Met the same bunch of assholes neighbors whose face is so black to even to put on a smile, I guess Morning is not so good for them after all, fuck, so i just use my killer stare at them , like a black cat starringout in the cold. Stupid People.
The train like is i said before a billion times, is fucking pack with smelly people. Whatever.
Normally, when i leave the train station, i will walk towards the hotel area to avoid condo construction.Used to be afraid that i get killed by falling bricks, window panels, but well now WTF, i dun fuckcare no more.. I openly walk towards that area, If my time is up, is up, kill by falling hammer? saw? I don't really bother no more.
My Job as legalised Ah Long is oh so suckie. Nevermind those langgar faces colleagues. To me, they are just accident gone wrong in their mummy's womb.When i join the company few years back, i was full of energy and fiery. Anythime ask me to get low down and dirty and quarrel with customers over repayment was cool, fun. Suing customers and see thier sorry asses houses kena size and auction their stuff in legal proceedings was way too HAPPENING FOR ME. But after all these years of doing the same thing, things are getting oh so stale. I just can't imagine idiots who stay on jobs for a LIFETIME, don't they realised that CHANGE IS THE ONLY FUCK CONSTANT IN LIFE? At my age now, being alot more mellow inward, ask me to carry on being the bad ass credit controller, its oh so not right. I find that i am Mr Bad news to customers, spreading fuck negative energy around. This is oh so wrong.
I miss those good old times when i have people in the office that i can relate to. Now, the only person i can relate to is the fuck office toilet mirror that reflect my own langgar face. Bosses are still bosses, so what i am the ace person around them now? People here look at me as a lackey, whatever bad names you can imagine, these people will call me from their fuck filth stained mouth.
I just can't stand it when i see people skiving in office and badfucking mouth me say i am a OTD king...fucking on the dot king...I just can't stand why people would wanna spend their time blogging and TRASH TALKING ON msn in the office and go kopi breaks and is SORE EYES when see others leave on the dot. Well, to me, if you cut down on all that shit, you can definitely not work late, unless your fuck department are run by demons or lousy fuck managers who cant manage their people and make them work late. What high volume, what high transactions, billing inputations? I say fuck you, if your department people are working till like 9 to 10 pm everynite, something is very wrong, it means you need to hire more people. Well, many fuck managers will say no fuck budgets...Get a life man!
Hence, that day when i heard that OTD king shit, i confronted those idiots before i leave, i ask them : "still aroud? well, work hard doesn't pay, you gotta work smart"..those aunties heard already face changed immediately. I think i fucking idiot to do it, but i just gotta let it out my fuck system.
Dissatisfaction is a way of life. Men is never happy with what he has. So do I. I am very much human, a very mechanistic one.
Anyway, enuff of feeling sorry for my lousy self...I have been trying to find the title of this song for many months, heard it oh so many times, just didn't know the title until Today. Thanks to Blue Apple for sending me the MP3. Is this song from some CMi korean drama mama..I don't know. Anyway, chinese songs that touch me are very few, this is one of them. Reminded me of all the good, bad, sad times.
My life is sad ,well, at least certain parts of it. I hate to be this Mechanical Animal that society has make me.
I want to very much break free. God please help me.
Baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心 好好欣赏你的美
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走 去跟随~
每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦 难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次kiss you Goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味- [Kiss Goodbye]
F¡яєвџяN Spit At 4:08 AM
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go and send ur resume to agencies.
i'm sure u can get a better offer.
you where got laggar face...
it's those horrible laggar-faced people in your office..
whats wrong with OTD, i also mah! dun care them as long u finish ur work!
WC made me sad!
At least u have a blog to vent your frustrations.
If not, given your resentment towards life, u may juz one day buy a shot gun and shoot everyone in the office.
heh.
hey.. i know how you are feeling.. we had been in the same boat before.. but look, it's that one step you need to take to walk out of all these stupid shit which i had long given up hope on.. Fuck care what those good for nothing aunties say, that's not important la. most impt thing is, you get your pay check on time every month to pay off your ever increasing number of bills!!!
Hello! No problem sending u the song la...
Me also OTD one.. cause i hate to do OT !!! =/
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