I push my fingers into my eyes

I push my fingers into my eyes... 
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache... 
But it's made of all the things I have to take... 
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside... 
If the pain goes on... 

I have screamed until my veins collapsed 
I've waited as my time's elapsed 
Now, All I do is live with so much fate 
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that 
I've left behind this little fact: 
You cannot kill what you did not create 
I've gotta say what I've gotta say 
And then I swear I'll go away 
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise 
I guess I'll save the best for last 
My future seems like one big past 
You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice 

Put me back together 
Or separate the skin from bone 
Leave me all the Pieces, then you can leave me 
alone 
Tell me the reality is better than the dream 
But I found out the hard way, 
Nothing is what it seems! 

All I've got...all I've got is insane... 
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Blasting this shit straight into my fucking eardrums this morning  and i really feel like killing..not to kill people..but just to kill all negativity stain and thoughts that are drugging my fucking brain!

I am so fucking tired this fucking week...at least tomorrow dun have to work, gonna head to suntec for a big fuck useless sleepy conference...shirt and tie? nah fuck!!!!!

Oh yes...ALL I"VE GOT IS INSANE ....i am going crazy with all these hectic shit...need a big fuck break!